Thoughts

I like the villain. Is there something wrong with me?

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That’s actually not true. He he. I don’t like villains. I was the kid who always chose to play as the counter-terrorists in Counterstrike even though there were “rumours” that the terrorists were more powerful. Damn I miss those days. Not really.

But there’s something admirable about certain villains. So admirable that they almost make it look like the makers of the movie want you to like the villain more than the hero. These villians single-handedly make the movie so good. The movies I am talking about are ones like

Night Crawler

The Dark Knight

Split

Clockwork Orange

So what’s wrong with Split? We have a dude who goes around kidnapping girls, makes them take off their clothes and finally eats them. Now what could possibly be wrong about this friendly bloke? Seems like a pretty good role model to me!

Reasons why I tend to sympathize with this guy:

He is mentally ill

Multiple personality disorder is “sooooo cool” (only when it happens to others)

He has unbelievably good discipline

People are mean to him

And most importantly, he has good taste in music. Damn those moves were killer(no pun intended).

Jake Gyllenhaal’s character in Night Crawler actually inspired me. That guy is as creative as Casey Neistat! He’s the kind of guy you would want to be part of your start-up company. He’s got the ideas, plans and most importantly, the ability to do some kickass talking.

I could go on and on about these villains. Obviously, they are all horrible, fucked-up people who deserve to be stopped. However I found some interesting qualities in all of them. For example, all of them have such determination that makes them almost unstoppable. I admire their drive. They are all “perfectionists” and they are really good at what they do.

One last thing about Split:

Everyone’s thinking it. I am just putting it out there. That “Beast” thing was just bullshit.

Man is a social animal? Really? Nah!

I am now at a point in my life where I have completely lost the ability to socialize. Yes, its 100% gone. I did it! Woo hoo! Feels great. I feel like I deserve a medal or something. Or a hug. I prefer the hug over the medal actually.

I tried. I gave it my best. How can you conquer something that deep down you know you don’t want? I have begun to really really like not talking to people. I am very happy by myself. Ha ha. But it worries me because I know that’s not good.

Greening of the mind

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I’ll be honest. I just took some great pictures and wanted to show them to the world. That’s the only reason why I am making this post. I’ve never even heard the phrase “greening of the mind” before. I don’t fully understand what it means but I like it! I sure as hell had my mind “greened” today. All along the way I kept asking myself “where have all the dinosaurs gone?” We are all living on the same planet where once the awesome dinosaurs roamed. How cool is that?

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I don’t know what it is about the colour green. There’s something special about it. I’ve heard people say that we’re mentally programmed to like it or whatever. But to see it on a tree and on grass is very different. If you look at the colour green on a painting, it doesn’t excite you more than any other colour. Now that I’ve gotten used to seeing green on the trees, if for some reason they had to change to some other colour like yellow, I would be very displeased. It would just destroy me. Weird.

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Tree-” Well I’ve fallen down anyway. Think I’ll just grow all over the road”

 

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Nature repairing the damage

 

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We need these gigantic “green things” more than we think. I know…all they do is give out oxygen. No big deal.

Curiosity

I am curious about the universe, science, marketing, entrepreneurs, comedians, music, economy and (almost forgot)people.

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I cannot explain in words how amazed I am at the fact that something so magnificent such as a giraffe and I share the same planet! Here’s the latest addition to my list of extremely curious things- ME

I am now at a point in my life where every single month I learn something new about myself. I feel like that should over time increase to every week or every day. Although slowly, I am learning from my mistakes. I am getting better.

Random things that I learnt:

Misconception- Moving to a completely new place and starting a new life is scary. Only the thought of it is scary. In reality it is the most awesome thing ever.

Travelling is the cure to everything.

Human emotions are contagious- If you find yourself feeling down most of the time maybe try surrounding yourself with positive people(its not easy but give it a shot).

People talk about setting goals and working towards that goal. Maybe it works for some people. I never really understood it. What do you do if you have absolutely no clue about what to do with your life? You keep looking. That’s what you need to do. That’s why its important to stay curious.

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Conversation

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Mind:

I was walking on wet sand when I noticed the water drying up wherever I stepped. It felt very strange. As I walked further I saw bright red crabs running back into their burrows. I have to say their sense of vibration is pretty good! This is where it starts to get weird- I felt sad seeing them run away from me! Questions started to emerge. Do I really belong here? If I do belong here then why is everything running away from me?

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Brain:

Good old depression is back! The first thing about water and sand is pure physics. You know that. So stop whining.

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Mind:

First of all, fuck you. Second of all, how are you still alive? I thought you were paralysed from all the sleep deprivation I gave you.

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Brain:

Yeah about that, we’ll be shutting down tomorrow sometime between 4 and 6. So don’t be in a meeting or whatever. And stop talking to that girl after midnight. Its not worth it. Pretty soon your organs will start to shut down. And by the way, stop eating all that junk before you sleep. I’ve been trying to contact Liver since last week. Dude is not even picking up. And by the way, start talking to people. There are good people out there. Stop being a whining looser all the time.

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Mind:

How dare you you slimy ball of noodles? Wait… you’re right. I’ll take care of it. Hang in there. In the meantime, take a look at these pictures I took. Damn! I am a pro!

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The idiot box

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Look into my eyes! Worship me!

The idiot box. That’s what they called the TV when it started to ruin people’s lives. They believed that it created dumb people. Maybe in some cases it did. I always thought of the TV as a doorway, a medium of communication that transcended all boundaries. There is no denying the fact that it helped spread knowledge. It might have been biased knowledge but still it did something. It invoked curiosity in people. I don’t know if TV was the result of evolution or if the TV affected evolution in some way. I know for sure that it has affected people’s lives. It has tremendously affected mine.

Having said all this crap I have to acknowledge the fact that I don’t watch TV anymore. In fact I kind of hate cable. I am very happy with the internet. I get to watch, listen, read whatever I want, whenever I want. Here’s the problem- sometimes it sucks.

I read a magazine the other day. I hadn’t read anything for a very long time. As I read it I thought to myself,” Everything here is very well thought out, neatly laid out and properly researched. This is frikkin great!”. I don’t get the same feeling when I read about something on the internet. The search results are tailored to satisfy me. The results I get are the ones that I want. Not the ones that I need. We’ve all internet-diagnosed ourselves with cancer at some point in life. However, it depends on how much I am willing to delve into the research. There is no hiding from the truth after all. I am also curious about radio. There is something cool about the randomness. There is something cool about the presentation, the radio edits, etc. I sure as hell don’t miss buying cassettes and CDs. It was a whole different experience though.

I think there is something strange about the way people take in information depending upon how it is presented. The other day, I saw an ad for an app. It said,” Don’t like reading the long boring news articles? Well now you can read every top story in 60 words or less!”. What the fuck has the world come to?

What is this weird thing called happiness?

I think it is one of the strangest things. Different things make people happy. Good things, bad things, just… things! What makes you happy? What’s the first thing that comes to mind? A loved one? Food? Travel? Music? Parties/nightmares? If everyone knows what makes them happy then why isn’t everyone happy all the time?

So it looks like we might be happy already but just don’t know it yet because we are too busy looking for more happiness. I’ve been thinking about the things that make me happy.

Here’s a song to go with the pictures!

My best friends

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Music

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Travelling

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Beer

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The universe works in mysterious ways. I helped a poor person the other day. No big deal. She didn’t say a word though. Just as I was about to leave she looked at me and smiled. It was not just any smile.

It was a smile that I will never forget.

It made me feel that my messed up life has some sort of purpose.

It said “Thank you for making me happy”.

It did something incredible.

It made me super HAPPY. I’ve never been super happy before.

But then that’s just me.

In order to be happy you have to first find out what happiness is for you. Then run to it.