No more Bayhem

I’ve been fascinated by all of Michael Bay’s work. However, like all good things that too must come to an end. Michael Bay’s traditional action packed movies are not awesome anymore. I think he should try something new. He won’t have any problem coming up with ideas!

Just my opinion!

Sometimes I wish this dude could direct my life!

I am not good at talking to people and its okay

I’ve tried. It doesn’t work. I am talking about casual talk. I can’t hold a conversation for more than a few minutes. Either one of us gets bored quickly and the conversation fades.  I’ve been trying to fix this for a long time. I tried to fix it only because I wanted to feel normal. For the past few months, I’ve been forcing myself to start conversations with strangers. Funny thing is that it worked. Almost everyone I talked to responded very well. But it is what happened afterwards that I didn’t like. I quickly got bored of talking!

I’ve stopped trying so hard because I found out that deep down, I don’t want to talk to people. I’ve realized that I enjoy being alone, doing things only I like. I keep myself company! Watching movies alone has opened up a whole new world for me. I now immerse myself in the movie. I don’t have to worry about weather the other person likes the movie or not. You might think that I am trying to fill the void in my life by doing all of this but no, I feel like I am good alone.

Shut off the world

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I sometimes shut off the world with these magical instruments. I feel different when I wear them. I feel safe. Reality fades and emotions takeover. I escape.

After a while, I take them off. I return to a refreshing reality. Somehow everything sucks a little less after that.

Listen to this!

Why do some people force others to listen to their music? I am looking at YOU, inconsiderate person who drives around blasting out noise with the windows rolled down. However, I am curious about this urge. I can even understand it to an extent. Some songs make some people feel good. So all that these people are trying to do is to make others feel good too! However, there are also people who do it just to annoy others. Annoying others makes them feel good! I love it when someone likes my music. When I was a kid, me and my friends listened to the same kind of music. Then one day, I heard a song that was so good, it blew my  mind. I couldn’t wait to show it to my friends. One day I was hanging out with a few friends. I set the song up on a nice stereo. With a lot of excitement, I pressed play. They were busy talking to each other. I was eagerly waiting for them to stop abruptly and say “holy shit! That sounds so awesome!”. Surprisingly, none of that happened and they continued talking to each other until I asked for an opinion on the song. They were like, “meh”. I realised something that day. I liked something that was different. That genre of music did not please others very well. It was hard to find others who like it. If anyone’s curious, this was that song:

So good! And I totally get why they didn’t like it. Linkin Park had already started to occupy their minds!

Anyway, it took me a while to stop forcing people to listen to my songs. I was living in a bubble. I know now that everyone has their own interests and are passionate about them.

 

Shyness

I am shy. I used to be extra shy. I used to blame it on my mother who always pestered me to be “confident” but was herself an introvert. I also used to blame it on my friends who made fun of me for trying. Even if this were true, it is time for me to fix it. So now, I force myself to make conversations with people I don’t know. It goes well, sometimes! However, I do enjoy being on stage. I call this the “Michael Jackson Syndrome”. Super shy in real life but very confident in front of hundreds of people!

I feel a little embarrassed to share this song but hey! I like it!

The unidentified flying object can be seen as a bright white light behind the trees

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That was clickbait. Oh! The agony! The picture is of the quiet street where I live in. I wouldn’t be so happy having a flying bright light where I live. Its just a street light. However, I am fascinated by the number of UFO sightings around the world. What intrigues me is that the videos are never clear and the pictures are always blurred (its almost 2017 for the love of god). I feel like a big percentage of these sightings are either hallucinations or plain mistakes. The rest are just experiments, spies, pranks, etc.. However I am still curious. What if one day…

Nothing special

I got a raise today. I got the letter from my manager. As I read the “we appreciate your hard work” crap, I pictured myself arguing with the boss for a better raise. Then I thought,” the heck with it” and signed the papers. I was contemplating asking for a raise for sometime. Now I feel like a dog on a bone.