I am now at a point in my life where I have completely lost the ability to socialize. Yes, its 100% gone. I did it! Woo hoo! Feels great. I feel like I deserve a medal or something. Or a hug. I prefer the hug over the medal actually.
I tried. I gave it my best. How can you conquer something that deep down you know you don’t want? I have begun to really really like not talking to people. I am very happy by myself. Ha ha. But it worries me because I know that’s not good.
I think it is one of the strangest things. Different things make people happy. Good things, bad things, just… things! What makes you happy? What’s the first thing that comes to mind? A loved one? Food? Travel? Music? Parties/nightmares? If everyone knows what makes them happy then why isn’t everyone happy all the time?
So it looks like we might be happy already but just don’t know it yet because we are too busy looking for more happiness. I’ve been thinking about the things that make me happy.
Here’s a song to go with the pictures!
My best friends
The universe works in mysterious ways. I helped a poor person the other day. No big deal. She didn’t say a word though. Just as I was about to leave she looked at me and smiled. It was not just any smile.
It was a smile that I will never forget.
It made me feel that my messed up life has some sort of purpose.
It said “Thank you for making me happy”.
It did something incredible.
It made me super HAPPY. I’ve never been super happy before.
But then that’s just me.
In order to be happy you have to first find out what happiness is for you. Then run to it.