Death of a dream

This is going to be a very negative one. So skedaddle outta here if you don’t want to ruin your day.

A few months ago, I got to live my dream of playing in a professional rock band. Initially it started out great. I was overwhelmed by the amount of talent in the band. People from different walks of life came together to make music.

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There was a finance analyst, a school teacher, a videographer, an audio engineer and myself. It was amazing to see how each member of the band added their own personal touch to the music. It was like, there was a little bit of each of our personality in every song. I was enjoying every second of it. The band and their friends were like family to me. More importantly, I could be me for a change. I didn’t have to put on a mask to be socially acceptable anymore. I was free to be my weird self. All that was until today when I got a call saying, the band was dis-banding due to scheduling issues. My heart broke. I’ll be honest. The last time I felt this bad was when I got dumped! I was carrying groceries when I got the news. I felt like throwing it onto the ground and screaming. My dream had faded away.¬†

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So that happened. But now, it feels like a wake-up call. Maybe I have to do it myself. Get together a group of musicians with similar interests and make magic happen. But for that, I need to find people with that special spark, that light of creativity and willingness to consider someone else’s opinion. It will be hard but I will not give up. I will rise from the rubble. I will not fade away. Wait a minute…this is turning into a gladiator speech. Besides, I’ve got bigger life-problems to deal with. Like, the light in my bathroom is too bright. It hurts my eyes.

 

 

6 comments

  1. you never know why things happen the way they do. who knows, the death of this dream may very well be the beginning of a better one. you said it yourself. Maybe you’ll be able to form a better band – no gladiators here. and you can always turn off the lights.

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      1. no movies for me – i’m blind – unless it’s an old movie, released more than a decade ago (before i became blind).but i can’t say i remember a movie called lights out. let me guess, horror?

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      2. Ding ding ding! Correct! Its okay. The movie sucks anyway. I had no clue you were blind. Really wish I could take back what I said. ha ha. But I’m a pro at offending people so…

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